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The Spirit of Zerubba-Who?

Hey SUM family, Tiffany here! Foundation 2

This last week, God said something very strange to me. I was in a weekly prayer meeting and at the end of the meeting He said, "the spirit of Zerubbabel." Huh?

I mentioned it to the other ladies that were in the room. I said, "I don't know what it means but God said ' the spirit of Zerubbabel.' I will have to look into this."

I was thinking that it was a word for that moment and what we had been praying about. However, as I sat down to write this post, I thought of the phrase again.

Zerubbabel was born in Babylon during exile (his name meaning begotten in Babylon). He traveled to Judea when King Cyrus allowed the captives to return home to rebuild the temple. 

"And the LORD stirred up the spirit of Zerubbabel the son of Shealtiel, governor of Judah, and the spirit of Joshua the son of Josedech, the high priest, and the spirit of all the remnant of the people; and they came and did work in the house of the LORD of hosts, their God" - Haggai 1:14 (KJV)

So it begins. Just like Zerubbabel, God stirs our heart with a passion and desire to fulfill the plan that God has in mind. We are excited and ready to take on the task. We begin to
enthusiastically walk out the calling...until opposition, trial, heartache, or lack comes.

Did you know that Zerubbabel, Joshua and the remnant began working on the temple, only to have to stop at the foundation? A long time passed (I want to say 17 years - check out
Haggai and Zechariah for the whole story) until they had permission to continue building.

How many of you have started living out a passion, vision or calling that God has had on your life? How many of you for one reason or another had to stop pursuing it?

I'll be honest with you - I've written before about the leading to run for the local school board. I was passionate and excited...until my husband said some hurtful things. The conversation the first night I talked to him about it left me feeling alone, vulnerable and unsupported. It was rough! I kept pursuing...trying to network and go to local meetings. Each time I would mention it, it was met with eye rolls, loud sighs and sometimes hurtful words. I didn't end up getting elected. It wasn't God's timing.

This year, there is talk with some local school parents about next year's election. I have kept really quiet. I still have the desire to run. I feel like now is a better time - more resources, more networking, more urgency. However, I have found myself much more reserved. It is hard putting myself out there. It is hard to imagine opposition outside of my household (the political scene can get pretty ugly) when I don't have a strong support from my other half.

I struggle with being embarrassed that my husband isn't by my side. I struggle with the seeing other men in the community rise up and support the cause; support their wives who are supporting the cause. It has felt like another "big thing that I can't share with my husband."

Seventeen years later, God gives a word for Zerubbabel through the prophet Zechariah:

Then he said to me, “This is the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel: Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit, says the Lord of hosts. Who are you, O great mountain? Before Zerubbabel you shall become a plain. And he shall bring forward the top stone amid shouts of ‘Grace, grace to it!’” Then the word of the Lord came to me, saying,  “The hands of Zerubbabel have laid the foundation of this house; his hands shall also complete it. Then you will know that the Lord of hosts has sent me to you. - Zechariah 4:6-9

Can you imagine how stagnant and apathetic and hopeless it would feel to have started a project for the Lord...to have a daily reminder (the foundation in the ground) of a dream unfulfilled for SEVENTEEN YEARS? In my case, it has been a year. I am much less enthusiastic and confident as I was last year. Good ol' social media giving me a memory of the day I filed with the county commissioner.

Here we have a reminder for Zerubbabel. He may have given up after 17 years - settled with, "I guess it will never happen. It is what it is. Oh well." We may forget or give up on the vision that God has given us. We may say, "It is what it is. Oh well." But God! He gently reminds us. He comes in and revives us again. He NEVER forgets His plan or your destiny.

Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit. Thank the Lord for the Holy Spirit! I can't tell how many times He has picked me up. Dusted me off. Strengthened me. Sent me out again.

The story continues with the school board. I am not giving up. I have a lot of forgiving and healing in my heart to do concerning my husband. Lord bring my husband and myself back together. Strengthen us. Give my husband a word or sign from You (whether he is able to recognize it is You or not) to ease and turn his heart and mind.

It is the Lord who promotes and makes low. I know that whether this next year's election or not, He has called me for the board. He has called me to stand and fight for my children and the future generations. I feel so ill-equipped and under qualified. However, I have to remember it is by His Spirit. His timing and His way - nothing and no one will be able to shut the door that God opens.

I wonder - what vision, calling or passion has God given you that you've had to set aside? Is God calling you to pick it back up? What is stopping you? Is there anything you need prayer about as you begin to run with it again?

See you in the comments.

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