Wow it has been a great time of celebration. I love reminiscing on how we have gotten to the SUM community. I came to the community in 2014. I've been scouring the blog to find my first ever comment here...I am praying one day I find it. I can't remember what I specifically wrote but I have memory of the night that brought me to the blog.
My husband and I got pregnant before we got married. I was a prodigal and running from the Lord. Once I found out I was pregnant, I allowed seeds of regret, bitterness, anger, envy, and all their friends to take root in my heart. We got married just before my son was born. I look back at the woman that I was back then and think, "God, how is it that Jason never left me back then?"
I give glory to God that my husband is such a patient man. I put him and my children through what probably felt like hell as they had to endure my fury. Take a look at one of the comments I found:
I realize now that the anger, bitterness, envy, etc. stemmed from guilt and shame. I was so ashamed back then. I quite literally couldn't hide my sin anymore. We all know what it takes to make a baby...just saying. ::grin::
When I found the community I was desperately searching for a way out of my marriage. I wanted an excuse to give up and walk away. God had another plan!
I truly believe that the love, support, council and testimonies of Lynn and Dineen (as well as the rest of the writing team's posts, and comments from the community) have pulled me through the darkest of times. I look at this comment and see an ashamed, broken, condemned and bound woman. I don't even know here anymore! Hallelujah!
What a beautiful place - this church without walls. I have learned over the years how to forgive myself, my husband. I have learned to fight for what I believe. I have learned to give grace. I have learned that I am not alone. There is something about having someone who understands....what hope, what joy!
I want to say with everything in me - thank you Lynn for answering the call. Thank you for your heart for our community. Thank you for sticking with it...being faithful to God and to Mike. I am among the masses that can say, if it weren't for your journey I wouldn't be where I am today. I count myself and my household as one of the jewels on your crown in Heaven. I love you so much. My life, my marriage, my parenting is better because of you, because of this community. I bless and honor you.
I know we have shared our stories in the comments over the last several posts....but I would still love to see you in the comments. Your testimony will give hope to someone like that girl I once was...