Hey SUM family, Tiffany here!
I pray that this post finds you well. Today I want to share a life changing event that happened last month. I just turned 34 in October. For my year 34, the Lord gave me Psalm 34 -
I will bless the Lord at all times;
His praise shall continually be in my mouth.
2 My soul shall make its boast in the Lord;
The humble shall hear of it and be glad.
3 Oh, magnify the Lord with me,
And let us exalt His name together.
4 I sought the Lord, and He heard me,
And delivered me from all my fears.
5 They looked to Him and were radiant,
And their faces were not ashamed.
6 This poor man cried out, and the Lord heard him,
And saved him out of all his troubles.
7 The [a]angel of the Lord encamps all around those who fear Him,
And delivers them.
8 Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good;
Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
9 Oh, fear the Lord, you His saints!
There is no [b]want to those who fear Him.
10 The young lions lack and suffer hunger;
But those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing.
11 Come, you children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the Lord.
12 Who is the man who desires life,
And loves many days, that he may see good?
13 Keep your tongue from evil,
And your lips from speaking deceit.
14 Depart from evil and do good;
Seek peace and pursue it.
15 The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous,
And His ears are open to their cry.
16 The face of the Lord is against those who do evil,
To [c]cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.
17 The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears,
And delivers them out of all their troubles.
18 The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart,
And saves such as [d]have a contrite spirit.
19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
But the Lord delivers him out of them all.
20 He guards all his bones;
Not one of them is broken.
21 Evil shall slay the wicked,
And those who hate the righteous shall be [e]condemned.
22 The Lord redeems the soul of His servants,
And none of those who trust in Him shall be condemned.
I was certain that this new year of living would be a game changer. However, I was so disappointed to see that I wasn't magically a new person. In fact, it seemed that things were going backward. The more I tried to press into the calling that God had for my life, the more opposition and roadblocks came along. I do understand that this is normal. I know that it is a sign that I am doing wonderful things for the Kingdom of God. However, it doesn't make it any less hard to walk through.
I mentioned before that things with work have been really rough. Over the course of this season I found that my heart was hardening. I was becoming bitter, ungrateful and depressed. When the Lord gave me this Psalm for my 34th birthday it really opened my eyes. I had a lot of repenting to do. Fast forward to November 12, 2020. Just 15 days after my birthday. I had a big argument with my husband and children that morning. I sent them off to school and work. I was off of work for the day so I went back to my bed and laid down. I couldn't help the defeat and depression from rushing in. I was crying out to the Lord. I had messed up again. It was in that moment that the Holy Spirit did a great work. He broke through and did a lot of mental healing. It was a divine reversal of YEARS of damage.
Please hang in there until Friday. I want to be able to testify of His goodness as much as possible. We will talk about what the Lord showed me in combatting the darkness in my mind. I hope that in sharing my story, you will be able to find freedom and hope. If He can do it for me, He surely can do it for you.
In the mean time, please enjoy this powerful song. The visual in this music video represents mental hardship so well. The first time I saw it, I was blown away.
Much love and blessings. See you in the comments!