Balm For My Pain
Prince Jesus Sings

The Aftermath

IMG_2433My friends, today I will finish my Bethel story but I want you to know that this adventure is far from over. Our journey with God is an ongoing adventure that unfolds on a daily basis. I’m stunned at times to go back and read in my journal what I’ve written down and then forgotten! I’m so glad I can go back and be reminded of these things because sometimes those little moments wind up being key to understanding what a big one means.

As I will share today. I had a small moment before the conference where I found a dime and penny on the ground during one of my walks. God has me picking up pennies a lot this last year as part of my growing faith and trust in Him to provide for us during these financially trying times. I’ve shared much of that with you in the past. (I have an update on that to share with you soon too!)

That day when I picked up not just a penny but a dime too, Abba whispered to me, “I will increase in you tenfold.” When I got home I placed that dime and penny in front of my keyboard as a constant reminder of what God had spoken to me.

So, on this particular day now after the conference I was walking around the park yet again. Each time I circle the spot where I found the dime and penny, I am reminded again of what God spoke to me that day. I believe the things that happened at Bethel are all part of that.

That morning I had spoken to Lynn on the phone about my hubby. She’d been praying for him and felt that God showed her that when he does come to Jesus, it will be very emotional for him. She even said he’d cry for a week! My guy doesn’t like to show it, but I know he’s a deep feeler when it comes to his emotions. I think he tends to guard himself in this area too.

Back to my walk and pray that morning. I began to pray for my husband and about what Lynn has shared with me. Then, wham! A slew of emotions that I can only describe as not my own brought me to tears. Intense grief and a series of emotional flashes of all the things my husband had missed and would one day mourn that he had.

Key events like our daughters accepting Jesus, baptisms, reading the Bible to them and more cerebral, our ongoing faith walks and growth. Dealing with our youngest daughter’s cancer and how God worked so miraculously even in the small things. Then it stopped as quick as it hit. My friends, I kid you not. This was not my grief. I don’t even know if I could have believed such a thing possible had I not experienced it myself!

As I continue to walk (and sniffle), I prayed over my husband for all of this. First in my heart and mind and then out loud. Thankfully there weren’t many people around at the moment or I might have gone back to being silent for what happened next. And what I spoke—prophesied—had to be spoken out loud.

I believe the Holy Spirit had risen up in me and was fueling my passion and my prayer, and He was giving me the words, because they stopped me in my tracks. I had to literally stop and consider what had just been spoken aloud over my husband.

Why? Because it was what I had been praying for him for years. Not in these words, not in this declaration, not how I would have said it. No, this was the Holy Spirit speaking the truth through me for my husband, out loud and for all the heavenlies and the spiritual realm to take notice.

My arm shot into the air and this poured out: “The Lord God Almighty will call forth Mike Miller to be a son of God, and he will serve the Lord all the days of his life.”

Whoa! Amen! Yes, Lord, yes! I believe it! I’ve shared in the past that when my hubby comes to Jesus, I want him ALL in. And I know that is the desire of Abba’s heart too.

My friends, I want to tell you that God is opening doors that I’m stunned to stand in front of—doors for this ministry, doors for my family and doors for me. Like the Shunammite woman in 2 Kings 4:15, who stood in the doorway, ready to receive what Elisha had to give her—a prophetic word about a son.

I’ve heard this Scripture referred to a lot lately, because God is using it to show so many that we need to be standing in that doorway, ready to receive what He wants to give us. I’m already seeing many of you walking in places you haven’t before and using your spiritual gifts. And it seems the more we share here the more that escalates.

Because these gifts are meant to be shared. They are not for us. We carry them to serve others. (Read James 4:2-3) And when we function in this way, as Abba intends us to, we are extending His kingdom and preparing others to do likewise. Abba is showing me how I need to take what I’m learning (and I still have so much to learn!) and not only share it here but also with my daughters too.

So, my dear friends, I want to encourage you to continue to seek God for what He has uniquely gifted you to do. Ask Him to place specific people and things in your path to help you grow in your gifts and your faith. I did that a while back and within a day I had an email from a church I was familiar with for a course about prophetic activation that launched me into a whole new realm of function and understanding.

If you can’t find what you need at your church, check out other reputable churches that offer courses like these for all to come, not just their own membership.

Look for and research books. There are some really great books out there by Bill Johnson, Randy Clark, Kris Vallotton, Dan McCollam and James W. Goll (I highly recommend The Lifestyle of a Prophet for everyone because it is truly about our relationship with God). Pray for the Holy Spirit to guide you and protect your heart from any deception, and do your research. Above all, read your Bible. That must always come first because if you don’t know the truth, you won’t be able to recognize the lies out there.

As I prayed and asked Abba how to end this post, He said to tell you this, “Seek me above all else, even above these gifts.”

My friends, if we don’t make our relationship with Him first—always—we run the risk of making an idol out of the very things we are asking Him for. Cultivate your relationship with Abba first so as to build character and to learn to hear Him better and better. Because without Him, all of this meaningless.

If you have questions or need more information, please don’t hesitate to ask. I am happy to share all that I know and am learning. And know that I am constantly praying over this community, for Abba to release all He has for us and equip us as He has planned from the beginning. I rejoice and shout praises to the heavens when I see one of you begin to walk in trust and new ways with our Precious Lord. It’s truly a beautiful thing to witness!

Love each of you so very much! 
Dineensig 

*****

Share your voice, heart and love in the comments. 

MAJ Cover 100 size Thumb
Marching Around Jericho is a spiritual guide. As you read through the pages, powerful and transformative instruction and equipping takes place. We follow Jesus as he leads us around the walls, imparting kingdom truths with each passing, finally arriving at the gates of the walled-off city, our spouse’s unbelieving heart. After the circles in prayer are complete, we arrive fully prepared to command the walls to crumble and be removed, making a way for our spouse to step from the rubble of lies and captivity, into faith and freedom!

comments powered by Disqus