But this song keeps going through my head, more as a reminder of who’s truly in control. For that I have to say I am very thankful. I needed this reminder desperately right now. Otherwise I’d drown in the present circumstances with my daughter. Though her body is healed, and the MRI shows nothing short of a miracle, this sweet child of mine still faces some of the worst trials I’ve ever seen a person go through emotionally. And if you’re a parent, you know the pain of watching your child struggle. I heard Beth Moore once say of mothers that we’re only as happy as our saddest child. Her words ring true, don’t they?
How easy it is to allow ourselves to see only the moment of despair and not the hope God holds constantly ready in his hand for our benefit. I have to remind myself on the worst of days that it’s not the true picture of what will be, because I know God’s working. The next week, the next day, even the next hour could present a completely different picture.
And the most profound thing that God has ever shared with me in our struggle to bring our family to wholeness are these words:
“There is purpose in your pain.”
These words weren’t easy to hear at first. I won’t tell you what I told him. Thank goodness God loves me despite my temper tantrums, but I recognized the truth and grabbed onto it for dear life.
Why? Because to think we go through such struggles and heartbreak in life for no reason at all is completely intolerable to my sense of justice and purpose. If I am to suffer, let it at least be for the benefit of someone, if not myself. And I suspect this has much to do with what God’s doing in my hubby’s life.
But in these words there is also comfort in knowing God only allows us to struggle for good reasons, and two, it means he’s there every bit of the way to help us through. He has the bigger picture in mind and knows what needs to happen to bring us to the places of blessing he’s just waiting bestow upon us.
So, in this time of struggle of which my flesh wants so desperately to be free, I will say that it is well with my soul. I will persevere for God because he deems this important to our future, and I will trust our future to him.
Yes, it is well.
Praying and believing,
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Marching Around Jericho is a spiritual guide. As you read through the pages, powerful and transformative instruction and equipping takes place. We follow Jesus as he leads us around the walls, imparting kingdom truths with each passing, finally arriving at the gates of the walled-off city, our spouse’s unbelieving heart. After the circles in prayer are complete, we arrive fully prepared to command the walls to crumble and be removed, making a way for our spouse to step from the rubble of lies and captivity, into faith and freedom!