Thoughts and questions are formulating in my mind. I've not yet made sense of it all, but I trust God to take care of that. Consider this more just me thinking out loud. And please join in with your own thoughts.
Perhaps its impatience. I don't know, but I do sense God preparing me for something, and I don't think I'm alone. We want to make an impact on our spiritually unequal marriages. We want to see God's hand at work. We want to see change. Are you with me so far? Are you feeling that same nudge, too?
We walk a difficult path in a S.U.M. We're constantly aware of what we should or shouldn't say. Or try to be. What will cause an argument? Taking the children to church, leaving a Bible out in the open, voicing our own faith-based opinion regarding a political debauchery?
How do we live our faith effectively in such circumstances? Sometimes we find a groove that works, a place of rest and peace. Conflict is avoided for the most part, but are we in actuality becoming complacent? Is God calling us to do more?
In the past I've entered this battleground. Whether willingly or unwillingly, I answer the best way I can, from what I know, what I see, and what I believe. Yet nothing has changed. At first I see impossibility, then God shows me possibility. At times I sense hopelessness crouching like a tiger, ready to steal my hope. Then God gives me a glimmer of victory over this beast and hope is restored.
I read the following Scripture recently, and even looked up different translations of it. I liked this one best:
For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith. Who is it that overcomes the world except the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God? — 1 John 5:4-5 ESV
Have you ever thought of your faith as your victory? Over the world? Over your circumstances? Over your spouses' disbelief? Since reading this, I've repeated this phrase over and over again:
"My faith is my victory. My faith is my victory. My faith is my victory."
In Romans 8:36 Paul says, "No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us."
I want to live my faith victoriously through Christ—in my marriage. I know you do. I'm praying fervently for you and I hope you will for me. I'm not ready to let this subject go. Next week, I hope to have more insight on HOW we can do this.
Praying and believing,