Growing up a latch key kid made me think the kids with parents had it made. As an adult I carried this belief over to my own children, thinking that if they had a mother and a father who loved them, they'd be happy, successful, and have an easier life than I did.
I was so wrong. (Lots of head nodding yes out there, I bet.)
Before this journey with our daughter began, God had showed me I needed to let that go. No matter how right I may have done things did not guarantee my children's lives would be smoother, easier, or trouble free. Quite the contrary, in fact. Raising them to love Jesus set up a whole different path of challenges.
Now with my youngest daughter's diagnosis, I'm realizing I have even more to let go of. Certainties and confidences placed in this world are now fraught with uncertainty and insecurity like I've never experienced. Our Father God is showing me new places I need to trust him more.
And that's the crux of it all, isn't it? How much do we trust God?
Wherever we have doubt, we'll find trust dwindling. Any place we have fear, we'll find no trust at all. And in those places we struggle, trust is wavering but hopefully growing. The longer I walk this path with God, the more I find trust to be at the heart of it all.
That's where God starts, isn't it? In our hearts? So this is the place I'm learning to let go of the most—to let go of my heart and trust God to hold it close, cushion it from the blows of this world, and trust Him to take it in the right direction.
Life may not be what I thought it would, but God is everything good, great, pure and faithful that I can possibly imagine. In the end, I think that's a whole lot better.
Praying and believing,
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Marching Around Jericho is a spiritual guide. As you read through the pages, powerful and transformative instruction and equipping takes place. We follow Jesus as he leads us around the walls, imparting kingdom truths with each passing, finally arriving at the gates of the walled-off city, our spouse’s unbelieving heart. After the circles in prayer are complete, we arrive fully prepared to command the walls to crumble and be removed, making a way for our spouse to step from the rubble of lies and captivity, into faith and freedom!