Waiting. It's the one thing we all are called to do at some point in our faith journeys and most likely, more than once. Sometimes these are small blips on the radar—waiting to see if God will open the door to a new job, ministry, or relationship.
Other times these periods define our very existence, as if everything you do revolves around this one person or event—the test results you're dreading, finally reaching your dream, or your spouse accepting Christ.
At times we feel like we're in a holding pattern, like an airplane waiting to land. Others are there circling too, commiserating and understanding full well what you're going through.
Right now, this defines my life. Three main areas are currently "on hold." And these are major areas to do with children, marriage and career. Honestly, being patient has never been so hard.
But I'm discovering a remedy to these waiting blues. Once again God is connecting the dots for me to contentment and trust.
23 Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
24 You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
I've written this Scripture down on an index card (bright yellow this time). I keep it right by my computer screen because I need to read it several times a day right now. The first line reminds me that I'm not alone. God is with me, he knows my struggle—intimately. That gives me comfort.
The next line (24) holds the promise of his involvement in my circumstances now and those to come, right until my death and reunion with him. Again, this gives me comfort. God is the one in control, and he has the big picture. I can trust him because he wants what's best for me.
Verse 25 is a stark reminder of what we can really claim in this world. Nothing lasts nor will last except God's love for us. In the big picture when we set our minds on an eternal perspective, God is the only reality that remains. Nothing we have, need, want, desire, or pursue on this earthly plain can be transfered to the next except our relationship with God and with our brothers and sisters in Christ.
The last line is what I'm praying for—for God to be enough for me right here and now, as I wait. This is the perspective I desperately need and desire. In him I know I'll find the strength I need to persevere through the waiting time. But I want more. I want my perspective to be completely on God, to remember that every time I strain against this place I'm in it's because I've forgotten one simple truth.
God is all I need. With this perspective, everything else falls into place.
Be my enough, Lord, be my enough.
Praying and believing,