Christ spoke to me! I heard a voice, not audible, but deep in my spirit. He gently said, “Lynn, your husband’s salvation will be for my glory, not for your glory.” I was humbled! I guess I had believed for many years, it was my personal responsibility to save my husband for Christ. Was I arrogant or ignorant?
I know now that my futile efforts, such as forced discussions of faith, manipulation by anger, pouting, or the infamous cold-shoulder were a waste of time besides being emotionally exhausting and upsetting. (A subject for another day) On that day, I realized God would meet my husband in His timing and by His terms. My responsibility was to just relax and persue in my own relationship with Christ. That morning I prayed, “God I honestly give my husband over to You, right now and forever. Help me to never take him back. It is a task too great for me.”
My life changed forever! Freedom is how I describe it. My fears and worries about living in our mismatched marriage melted right away. They have not returned. In fact, our marriage relationship is full to overflowing. Rich in trust, love, fun, adventure and comfort.
More amazing still…. Several months after praying that prayer, my husband, called a neighbor who attended our church. He asked to meet him for lunch to discuss his faith. I didn't know of this call until the day of the meeting.
Since that time, my husband has willingly attended a seekers class offered through our church. If you knew my husband, you would know what a miracle this single step was. Today my husband is still trying to work out who Jesus is to him. He has not crossed the line of faith, but I am not worried. Everything is in the capable hands of a God who loves us both.
Mark out a straight path for your feet. Then those who follow you, though they are weak and lame, will not stumble and fall but will become strong.
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Marching Around Jericho is a spiritual guide. As you read through the pages, powerful and transformative instruction and equipping takes place. We follow Jesus as he leads us around the walls, imparting kingdom truths with each passing, finally arriving at the gates of the walled-off city, our spouse’s unbelieving heart. After the circles in prayer are complete, we arrive fully prepared to command the walls to crumble and be removed, making a way for our spouse to step from the rubble of lies and captivity, into faith and freedom!