I want to jump right in with the rest of the story.
God was really stirring my heart to look into my local school board. There were a few amazing God confirmation moments along the way. I decided to step out in obedience to this new found calling. The hardest part was yet to come. Talking to my husband. I found it quite surprising that he didn't seem pleased with the idea. In various discussions he gave me the "go ahead" but it didn't feel like he was supportive.
Over the process of this time, I was beginning to network and go to some political meetings with my local party. Outside of my home there was excitement and encouragement. Inside of my home there was tension. The more I began to pursue this campaign, the more it seemed like the wedge was growing.
Our verse for today is 1 Corinthians 13:7:
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. NLT
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. ESV
Love bears all things [regardless of what comes], believes all things [looking for the best in each one], hopes all things [remaining steadfast during difficult times], endures all things [without weakening]. AMP
Love is a safe place of shelter, for it never stops believing the best for others. Love never takes failure as defeat, for it never gives up. TPT
This verse really stuck in my mind during this trying time. The enemy will do anything to break down the family unit. There were so many tempting times where I just wanted to call it quits. It has lessened but the pressure is still there.
I would love to say that my husband has done a 180 degree turn around. He still isn't thrilled with this new desire of mine. But, I know that he is trying to protect me. The "political game" can be pretty vicious!
The truth is, in my pursuit of 1 Corinthians 13:6 (does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth), I forgot about the other equally important parts of love - patient, kind, not easily angered, does not keep record of wrongs...
I allowed bitterness and unforgiveness to take root. I left that door wide open and the enemy has had a field day with it. Whatever happens with campaigning and the election in November will never be as important as my marriage. How can I advocate for families outside the home if I am not advocating for my own?
The Lord has patiently opened my eyes to see how my bitterness caused me to stop respecting my husband. My demeanor and actions toward my husband were not reflecting love but self-preservation. This in turn caused him to not show me love in return.
I love the Amplified version above. Let's read it again.
Love bears all things [regardless of what comes], believes all things [looking for the best in each one], hopes all things [remaining steadfast during difficult times], endures all things [without weakening].
The greek word for "bears" is stego. This can mean to cover, conceal, ward off, bear with, and endure patiently.
In order for love to bear all things, I've learned that it has to be done with a forgiving and humble heart. It is easier said than done. However, when we focus on Love, himself - things don't seem to be as complicated as we make them out to be.
I don't know about you but this 2020 season has been pretty difficult - mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. When God shakes things, it is for our good and His glory. I am looking in anticipation for a victorious 2021. In the mean time, I am going to allow the Great Physician to do some major heart work on me.
See you in the comments.
Many blessings to you!