God, I need to hear from You.
I needed direction, guidance and affirmation. You name it, I needed. Life had taken a 180 and bit me in the face. I wasn’t sure what to make of it, what direction to go, or even what decisions needed to be made. I needed to hear from God very clearly and I asked Him very directly.
God, I need to hear from You.
Sunday morning I read from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. The reading for September 2nd spoke of how we “scurry around, trying to accomplish things through our own strength and ability.” And in that process we miss living our lives in collaboration with God.
I don’t have that problem but then again I do. I try to live my life in collaboration with God so much so that I’m scurrying around so busily that I sometimes miss what He’s doing! I forget that He’s the whole reason I write, speak and serve others. I forget to talk with God first before I start doing.
And part of this reading was 2 Cor 12:9-10, a verse that God brings to my attention frequently.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
There was my guidance. I went to church later that morning and guess what our pastor spoke about? Yep, same issue. That we get so caught up in what we’re doing that we forget what we’re really about. We forget that the first and most important piece of work we are to do, is pray.
Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. — Col 4:2
There was my direction. I returned home from church, jumped into doing some work that’s hounding me to get done, took a break and read the Forty Days of Prayer email from Max Lucado. In it he said,
“The flagship assignment of the church is prayer. Feed the hungry? Counsel the confused? Teach the lost? Absolutely. But first, we pray. The primary activity of a local church is intercession and worship.”
And there was my affirmation.
I prayed in the midst of the chaos that hit me and my family last week and God spoke. He used a devotional that pointed to Scripture, my pastor and a message in an email. God’s answers usually come in threes like that for me. It wasn’t the clear message telling me what to do that I’d hoped for. Instead, God gave me a reminder that I needed much more.
That in the chaos of life that makes us feel confused and weak, He is strong. That in whatever I do, I need to remember to pray first, that there lies my first and most important work of the day. That I am not required to be perfect and get things right before I can have God’s grace. His grace is there before I even begin and mine to find strength and direction from.
I prayed for an answer and God gave me Himself.
I don’t know if I’m making sense. It’s all part of that waiting and trusting thing again. My directions are clear for now.
Pray. Wait. Trust.
And while I’m doing all that, can I boast at how incredibly weak I am?
Lord Jesus, may your power rest on us weaklings as we wait on You.
Praying & believing,