Opened Eyes by Amy Forbes

Today I want to welcome Amy Forbes to Spiritually Unequal Marriage as a guest contributor. Amy has share several posts with us over the past three years. Today she brings a very honest and revealing look at her marriage and how the Lord has moved in her life.

Amy is a born again Christian and a former wicca (story for another day). She is married with three children and lives in a small town in New Zealand. She works part-time developing websites. She is faithful to share how God has worked in her life, her husband's life and in their marriage. You can find Amy at her personal blog, I Love Retro Things.

Open Eyes

As I sit here in the cool spring evening after cleaning up the kitchen from dinner I'm thinking about where I was emotionally, spiritually, physically a year ago at this time.

Yes I'm in an unequal marriage too and there have been times over the years where I've felt revolted by my husband, I'm ashamed to admit that. If I think about it, he's a good provider, he works hard for us and the guilt I felt about my feelings was tremendous.

I knew no matter how much I tried I couldn't change myself, only God could do that. Surprise, surprise...he has! I don't feel the way I did when we first met but I no longer have the hate or the guilt or the revulsion. I sound awful don't I but no doubt there are other women out there going through or who have gone through the same thing too.

Over the last few months it's almost as if I've been seeing my marriage with new eyes. Sometimes I have that feeling of discontentment, you know wishing we had more money and nit-picking over the little things that really aren't worth fighting about.

If you'd told you a year ago that my feelings would have changed I would've laughed at you but now I'm beginning to realize that all things are possible with God. Once you give a situation to Him, He is the only one who can change things for the better. As the Pantene advertisement on TV says "it might not happen overnight but it will happen" and that's how it's been for me.

I pray that anyone else going through what I have will find hope in this post. Just because things seem hopeless doesn't mean they will stay that way. Ask God to change you and your marriage and then give it to him.

Amy

Amy Forbes: Amy is a born again Christian and a former wicca (story for another day). She is married with three children and lives in a small town in New Zealand. She works part-time developing websites. Amy is a frequent guest writer at Spiritually Unequal Marriage. She is faithful to share how God has worked in her life, her husband's life and in their marriage. You can find Amy at her personal blog, Home With Amy and I Love Vintage Things.

Comments

[Tamara Hari]

Just because things seem hopeless doesn't mean they will stay that way. Ask God to change you and your marriage and then give it to him.

dear amy, such true words. I believe God is the strongest when things are the most hopeless. why? because then we see our human boundaries and Gods endless.....boundaries: meaning..God doesnt have boundaries, only we do.

Praise Him, be blessed, Tamara

[Denise]

Bless you dear Amy.

[Debbie]

Amy, thank you for your honesty! One of the things that helped me over the years is to ask God to help me love my husband as Jesus loves him; to see him through His eyes. And it has helped tremendously. They are blinded to the truth and we may be the only Jesus they get to see close up. May we encourage one another through this journey.

May the Lord bless you and strengthen you,
Debbie

[Iris]

Thank you for sharing from your heart and being open about your past feelings. You are right - sometimes we need to let go and let God...May He continue to guide you heart and mind...