Letting Go

Growing up a latch key kid made me think the kids with parents had it made. As an adult I carried this belief over to my own children, thinking that if they had a mother and a father who loved them, they'd be happy, successful, and have an easier life than I did.

I was so wrong. (Lots of head nodding yes out there, I bet.)

Before this journey with our daughter began, God had showed me I needed to let that go. No matter how right I may have done things did not guarantee my children's lives would be smoother, easier, or trouble free. Quite the contrary, in fact. Raising them to love Jesus set up a whole different path of challenges.

Now with my youngest daughter's diagnosis, I'm realizing I have even more to let go of. Certainties and confidences placed in this world are now fraught with uncertainty and insecurity like I've never experienced. Our Father God is showing me new places I need to trust him more.

And that's the crux of it all, isn't it? How much do we trust God?

Wherever we have doubt, we'll find trust dwindling. Any place we have fear, we'll find no trust at all. And in those places we struggle, trust is wavering but hopefully growing. The longer I walk this path with God, the more I find trust to be at the heart of it all.

That's where God starts, isn't it? In our hearts? So this is the place I'm learning to let go of the most—to let go of my heart and trust God to hold it close, cushion it from the blows of this world, and trust Him to take it in the right direction.

Life may not be what I thought it would, but God is everything good, great, pure and faithful that I can possibly imagine. In the end, I think that's a whole lot better.

Praying and believing,
Dineen

Comments

[Tamara]

dear loving dineen:

Grace be to you, and peace, from God our Father, and from the Lord Jesus Christ.

may the Lord, Jesus Christ always cover you and mike, leslie and rachel, your future sons-in-laws and grandchildren with His Blood and Love and Blessings!

Dear Dineen, as I read your post my heart was so soft and sad too - you are going through a very difficult and yet holy season. You shall be blessed for your faith.

in Christs love, Tamara

[Lynn]

Dineen,

I can't even beging to tell you how much this spoke to me. Thank you. Everywhere I turn I see Jesus speaking to me, "Trust me." In this time of trials, we are both trusting. Amazing we are on the same journey yet different. Have a blessed day, Living in His glorious presence. I know that you do. Hugs.

[Noreen]

Dearest Dineen, I can't believe all that you shared-sounded just like my life & childhood. Now, I'm trusting Him with my grand daughter and your post hit the mark-it is all about letting go and letting Him be God.
Love you.
Noreen

[Denise]

Bless you sweet one.

[Gretchen]

We've recently been through a valley with my son and his differences. But God is faithful and good. He really taught me (and I'm sure will re-teach until I really GET IT) that I'm to hold loosely to all except my faith in Him.

Blessings of grace and peace to you.

[Laurie Ann]

Praying God's best for your daughter, and for His peace and comfort for your family...